February 25, 2013


Life has been interesting lately. Lots of transitions, ups and downs, change and uncomfortable days. I have a history of not doing so well with these things. Mainly change/transition. Welcome to the first year out of college. I have moved three times, added jobs, deleted jobs and changed housemates along the way. I have also seen prayers answered, been promoted and met amazing people. There are days where I have no idea what I'm doing (most of the time) and days where I strut with confidence. No two days are ever the same when it comes to emotion and reality. An image on Pinterest explains this part of my life perfectly.


I have been searching for meaning and purpose in my days and honestly a lot of the time I just say "I'm here for a reason...and I know it is God ordained...but I'm not seeing much past that." 
 I have learned that this is where faith comes in. Even when you don't feel like you have a purpose, you do. God doesn't do anything accidentally. He didn't create you without a purpose in his head. He didn't say to himself, "whoops how did she pop out there? Well, I hope she navigates life. Good luck little person." He molded you with your future in His head. And when we are made in His image, that is pretty cool already. I get frustrated with myself when I forget this. I want to buy new clothes, decorate my room and create an image and identity for myself when I already have one! This can get exhausting; pleasing yourself and the world. Colossians 3:2 says "Set your affection on things above, not on things of the earth." This is the only way to be released from the grasp of the world.

When you leave situations you are used to and have identified you, such as sports and school, we scramble to find anything that can give us a sense of purpose or identity. At one point I made like a million muffins cause I felt like I had an identity as "Baker Girl." That seems even weirder now that I type it out. But that is how desperate I was to just belong somewhere. 
In the end, it is painful but mind blowingly beautiful when God takes away the need for these surface identities. When we realize He is enough, we are finally fulfilled and we don't need an identity in anything else. Bye, Bye Baker Girl.

I encourage you to spend time thinking or writing out the things of the earth that own an inappropriately big section of your heart. What do you wake up thinking about? How God will show His mercies today or how you need to please your boss? List things that you commonly give weight to and set them at the feet of Jesus. Those don't need to unnecessarily fill space anymore. Give that space to God. He deserves it.

And with that, I ironically leave you with a blueberry muffin recipe. 

Remember that I have a kitchen light that is from the 70s.

Paleo Blueberry Muffins
Adapted from Civilized Caveman
Servings: 12 Muffins
Prep Time: 10 Minutes
Cook Time: 20 Minutes 

  • 3 Eggs
  • 2 Tbsp Honey
  • 2 Tbsp Coconut Oil Blackberry Banana Muffins, melted
  • 2 Tbsp Coconut Milk Blackberry Banana Muffins (I used Half & Half because I ran out of coconut milk)
  • 1/4 Tsp Salt
  • 1/4 Tsp Vanilla
  • 1/4 Tsp Baking Powder
  • 1/4 Cup Coconut Flour Blackberry Banana Muffins
  • 1-2 Bananas
  • 1/2 Cup Whole Blueberries
  • 1/2 tsp Cinnamon

Preheat oven to 400 Degrees F
Mix together your eggs, honey, coconut oil, coconut milk, salt and vanilla
Mix together your baking powder and coconut flour and then combine with your wet ingredients
Mix your batter well and then fold in your banana and blueberries 
Divide your batter into 12 Muffin tins and bake for 20 minutes 
These turned out really sweet for me because I used 2 extremely ripe bananas, so I cut down on the honey. They are very moist and not the same consistency as non-Paleo muffins but they do the trick! Great for an early morning snack. 
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1 comment:

  1. You are an incredible writer, young woman, and daughter. Dad!