HMM...

I've been contemplating the idea of dropping everything I have been doing that is mundane, and taking a leap of faith to do what I love. Scary, unpredictable, unknown. But the possibilities a leap of faith can bring makes me excited... 

When was the last time you took a leap of faith?

The kind of leap where you would fall so hard if it weren't for God's hands.

SHE

BE STILL

Today was one of those days. You know where you over analyze everything that occurs but somehow, at the same time you feel like you just went through the motions? I'm a self-professed over analyzer.

The bean would say I give too much weight to my feelings and how other people act. It's true, but hard to change. I used to rag on people pleasers not even knowing I was one of them! I spend so much of my time and energy answering to other people's needs (and making sure I never make a mistake, which I always end up doing anyway) that my days fly by without me stopping to enjoy them. Its interesting that I find little details, trinkets, words and moments so intriguing. Maybe its because I so easily ignore them? I think everyone could use a lesson in slowing down.

One of my favorite verses ---Be still and know that I am God.

How powerful a few words can be. How powerful slowing down and NOT acting on anything can be. 

THANKFUL

Since graduating college, I've had a pretty consistent feeling of being uncomfortable and uprooted. So many friends who graduated before me would explain how rocky and confusing their first year out of school was, but I didn't think I would relate to them. Man, was I wrong. Changes in identity, the working world, and a decreased community have hit hardest. The biggest challenge has been searching for God's plan and purpose in all of the turmoil. Small moments have reminded me that He hides little blessings throughout our days more often than we realize. Since I am naturally a pessimist, focusing on these blessings has been a challenge. But I am committed to change my perspective and view this time as something to be treasured. 

Blessings I have encountered so far:

• finding housing with wonderful friends in the nick of time

• discovering a love of cooking

• the chance to serve a secular community

• the opportunity to work with children as my job

• a new homegroup full of wise counsel

• my own room to decorate and fill with small pretty things